regrets.

When i lived in Columbia Missouri growing up i feel like i made way to many mistakes and i wish that i could honestly go back and fix a few of those things. I dont regret some of the mistakes i made because i probably wouldnt be where i am today. I have made a lot of mistakes that i want to go back and fix..but i cant now because life doesnt work that way unfortunately. There are things that i am scared to find out and i dont know what i would do if I found out something i didnt want to. I  for one just want to be able to not think about the regrets that i have made and try to just go on with my life now and make things turn out good for the rest of my life that i have to live.

worrying to much!

I feel like worrying about things to much has definitely taken its toll on my body. I feel like worrying about my health or worrying about school and money makes me think way to much. I would like to just grab like by the horns and just take every day how its supposed to go and just live my life with no regrets. Worrying to much will get you know where unfortunately. I think that my new goal in life is to just not think to much and try to live my life not thinking about things. I want to be able to just have one day in my life not thinking about things to much. Since we wont be around forever its best to just think things through before you do them for one.

When will life get easier?? What will it take for me to understand things better?

CHEATER!!!

According to the site jezebel updated on december 1st 2011

Rumor has it that last Friday night — or more technically, very early Saturday morning — Ashton 
Kutcher allegedly had sex with a 23-year-old woman in his room at the Hard Rock Hotel in San Diego. Ashton allegedly told this woman — allegedly named Sara Leal — that he and Demi Moore had separated, but had not yet made it public. Apparently this is Ashton's usual line. Allegedly! In any case, the woman has hired some lawyers in case Ashton comes after her. There's more about this in Star magazine, so expect additional details in Midweek Madness. By the by: September 24 marked Ashton and Demi's sixth wedding anniversary. This blonde lady should not be confused with the brunette lady, Brittney Jones, who claimed that Ashton "made love" to her on a couch.

So apparently ashton is a filthy cheater! what a JERKK!!! When it comes to cheating and being unfaithful in a marriage it just really ticks me off and makes me think twice about trusting people. I feel like if you think your going to get bored in a marriage then you shouldnt get married in the first place! When you make a promise to someone you are supposed to keep that promise not go and screw it all up by some nasty one night stand on a couch in a the hard rock..Ashton..you are a scum.

WORK and no play

I have come to the realization that all i do is work and go to school and OCCASIONALLY get time to have fun. I feel like my childhood kind of went away after i turned 17 that isnt necessarily a bad thing but luckily I still have a lot of time left in my life to make things better!

I work two jobs and they are a lot of fun and i have fun doing them and what not so when i get off all that i want to do is just sleep or just relax which is okay but i wish that i wasnt so beat that i could just go out and do something fun at least!

OH life i wish you were more kind to me sometimes.

christmas time

Christmas always brings around good feelings for me and my family!

Every year its the same tradition for me and my family: we always watch a christmas story and the national lampoons christmas vacation movies literally 20 times each. I can proudly say that i know all the words to both movies lol! Every christmas morning we wake up open presents and then have a big family lunch and dinner. The sad thing is that my family lives in columbia and i dont get to see them as much and thats a big thing for me because family wont always be there unfortunately!

Christmas will always be a big thing for me and I will always be a huge kid at heart!